Mind is not working.....

Have you ever wondered about things like what exactly is going on in your mind?...or What is the future going to be like for you..i hope u have because if you have'nt then it means there is something wrong with me!.... but you see the fact is that whenever i am alone on the terrace or away from a party which i was suppose to go to.... my mind starts wandering...I never really was able to tap all the things that went on in my head...but then some points would just keep circling over the centre... things i could never forget...
See my life was probably very turbulent than an average life...of course there are probably people out there who have gone through much more!! But then i always imagined my life as it is displayed in the movies,where there is no time for the little and small moments of joy and sorrow, so i always imagined my life as fully (not overall but fully) either happy or sad..but there turned out to be so many other emotions in life....each time with a difference.... the weirdness of this all is that any specific emotion could be both happy as well as sad... then there are these moments of intermediateness where you dont kno wat to feel but u kno that its something great.... (my expressions may be underrated as i am very bad at expressing myself...)... you know life has so many moments- small and big, memorable and forgettable, turning points and cross roads... there are so many that we cannot possibly remember all of them... that is not if we use only 5-6% of our brain capacity... see each mind works differently...you cant possiby say wat exactly is going on in another person's mind..(u maybe upto an extent correct but some small things which make the big changes are often left out... its very strange how the media of today can just so very easily pass comments on other people's character...even though that person may have done watever he has done only due to some restrictions....who knows...even Osama Bin Laden could have blasted the twin towers due to some surroundings during his childhood which made him make such a move...of course the move was bad....but i feel that he wanted to prove something and hence he did it... Its a diferent thing that the method he choose was definitely wrong but still we are not at liberty to discuss whether HE as a person was good or bad...
I woud like to know what you all think about what I have just typed...because i want to know how every individual thinks... i feel very awkward that i am having such thoughts and would like to know if everyone thinks similarly and doesnt want to say so...whatever it is I  would like to know your view....and anything else you would expect from this blog....i shall try my best to fulfill ur expectations..
Thank You for reading...
Sriram...